About to be a Father... It's Still Surreal, but Getting Real

It's been awhile since I blogged about anything... been quite busy with school, my court case, and preparing for parenthood.

I'll be a father in less than 3 weeks but it was all surreal, still kind of is... but it's getting more real as each day goes by. My wife and I have had 3 wonderful baby showers, and 1 more baby shower is going to be thrown for us. Each baby shower was a wonderful experience for my wife, but for me, it was more like 'Yay, more stuff we don't have to pay for.' So I never really looked through what we got, just kinda kept a mental note of stuff that we, again, don't have to pay for. But today I did the baby's laundry. As I was going through each item of clothing, my mentally went numb. Numb in a good way. It's hit me all of the sudden, that in less than a month I will have someone to care for. A person that is a part of me and my wife, our very own creation. Remember that song, "Just the Two of Us" by Will Smith... well that song makes me think of things that I'll probably be going through one day soon...

'From the first time the doctor placed you in my arms
I knew I'd meet death before I'd let you meet harm
Although questions arose in my mind, would I be man enough?
Against wrong, choose right and be standin up'

'People drivin all fast, got me kinda upset
Got you home safe, placed you in your basonette
That night I don't think one wink I slept
As I slipped out my bed, to your crib I crept
Touched your head gently, felt my heart melt
Cause I know I loved you more than life itself
Then to my knees, and I begged the Lord please
Let me be a good daddy, all he needs
Love, knowledge, discipline too
I pledge my life to you'